Okay. There is various things that are annoying me right now. For example I got the feeling that nobody takes me seriously. When I'm.. Well, not feeling good or something like that they are like 'You are making excuses again.' AND that my opinion (or way of doing things) are wrong and THEIRS are right. That's just so.. ARKH. It's always 'You're wrong, I'm right. I can do this and that but you can't.' Pfft. The sound of their voice when they talk like that... Fuck.
And I don't have much self-confidence. And for me it's not obvious where can I find it or easy. So... Yeah. It's good for those who has it or knows how to get it, but don't expect me to be the same way.

Well, here comes the 'happy part.'

Yay for snow! Even tough there is only a little, but still. And I think I have a "puppet season". (Krhm Naruto, Kuroshitsuji krhm..)

Yeah, I'm not sure is this necessary or not, but I will tell this anyway.

Its about comics. There is going to be some bad news to them who reads them. And I'm sorry about what I'm going to say next.

Lost in the Death Valley
I don't think that I will continue this. It was easier when I had the old computer. Same goes for the Confessions. I think I need a miracle to continue those. .___. Aaand I have no longer interest either. But we'll see.


Your secret admirer
Ufff. Yeah. I think that there is going to be a loooong pause on this one. I don't have any interest at the moment. And I haven't drawn with computer so long.. It's gonna take some time that I can do it again.

Whou. I really shouldn't start drawing comics if I can't finish them. :'D

And sorry about yesterday. Thank you for all your kind comments. I really appreciate them. ^___^


... Damn, that stupid 'mood' thingy still doesn't work. >___>

That's a good song btw.


I'm very embarrassed right now. Can't tell reason tough. Sorry. But yeah, when I'm embarrassed I get depressed easily. And then I called to my friend (which I shouldn't do, because my.. Krhm, phone bill).
Well. I will tell you this. I wasted 7 minutes (yes, in this case to me it is much, too much) of my life AND phone bill. THAN YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. I will not do the same mistake again. Don't expect me to answer calls either.

Hmm, maybe I will draw something.. Prepare some moooore emo pictures. And.. I'm sorry if I wasted you time.


.. And dammit that stupid thingy won't let me change 'Mood' >_____< It shouldn't be 'stunned'. It should be miserable or something. ARGH.

Uuuuuh. Wanted to write something..?

Summer vacation is close. o__o I mean reeeallly close. Omfg.
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Yesterday I found a interesting manga. Love Neko (or Neco, I'm not sure). And I also learned what a drama CD is. Krhm. *blush* Oh god. My hands are shaking. I can't trust my voice to speak. *hides under the pillow*

Last night.. My dad shouted about my computer using. Saying that I should do something else, like weight lifting. And that me (and they, my parents) will regret when I'm old and weak. I know he has a point. But he didn't have to fucking shout at us. My mum was trying to defend me, and my dad shouted at her too about that. Dad said that he is not allowed to say anything or give advice, because then we get angry. I bet there is something that he is stressed about and then he takes it out on us. And throws things around and shout's ''Shut up!'' and ''Don't make me angry!''
When I was going to bed, my mother decided to check if I was okay. She thought that I was cold, because I was trembling. Well. I was scared as hell. It's been long since I cried like this.

I know this doesn't sound too bad, but to me.. It's too much. I can't take this. I don't know how should I feel anymore. Maybe.. Just maybe, it would be better for my parents that.. That I wouldn't even exist.
And I know my english sucks, but I'm too tired to think about that. And I can't see properly, because of tears.

Aaand now I'm too scared to go to the computer. Or home. (I'm at the school's computer right now) But well I think that now the argument is only between my mom and dad.

Oooh and morning my dad said that there is no need to afraid of him. HOW DARE HE TO SAY THAT AFTER LAST NIGHT!

Pffft. I think I'm going to visit at the graveyard today.